Through my process, I discovered why I had a hard time trusting.
For many years of my life I bought into other people’s belief systems. I did so to keep from losing me, but in the process I found that I lost myself. Let me explain.
When I was unable to meet the expectations of their belief system (s) — for me — I found myself questioning my ability to trust myself. Because I questioned my ability to trust myself, I sought to maintain the expectations of their belief system (s). In the process, I sought to defend and justify the merits of their belief system (s) – to feel safe and secure.
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In the process, I bought into several denial system (s). I did so because of my guilt, shame and fear. In my experience, I found as long as I bought into these denial system (s) the harder it was for me to trust the process, to trust a loving God and to trust myself. It was only after I began to question these denial system (s) that I was able to begin living life on life’s terms.
As I began to establish my own belief system, I began to live life on life’s terms. Some of these new beliefs are summed up in several short phrases.
I am an army of one, but I am not alone. I am a bright and shinning star, but my light comes from God. My worth is – because I am. I am a true believer. I am confident in my process. I am a work in progress. I create out of my being. I am kind and loving. I am loved. I am safe and secure, forever. I am more than enough. I am at peace. I am resilient. I am wonderfully me.
In the process of establishing my belief system, I have grown in my ability to trust and accept myself. Because I am free to be myself, I am growing in my capacity to trust the process and a loving God. In the process, I am learning how to trust what is real.
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