In my experience and for many years I struggled to color my life beyond my brain injury and invisible disability.
Color my life because I kept running into many proverbial ‘walls”.
“Walls” that I kept running into because of what I could not understand at the time. Walls that I ran into an attempt to “find” who I was as an individual.
What I Discovered
Although these “walls” – educational, employment, vocational rehab, 3 ssdi applications, deemed unemployable/disabled – were disappointing, they gave me insight.
Helping me to Flourish
Through my process, I began to realize that I could flourish by learning from what did not work for me. As a result, I began to look at these “walls” as indicators and guides. Guides and indicators of what did not work.
“I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.” Thomas Edison
Note: In the event that you have run into many disappointing “walls”, too, be encouraged. They are just indicators and guides, not failures, for you.
They are just indicators (as they were for me) of what does not work or will not work for you.
Expressing and Creating Myself
What helped me to begin to flourish was when I began to create. Create through my body, soul, spirit, mind and emotions in a way (s) that worked for me.
Inch by inch, life’s a cinch. Yard by yard, its very hard.
Seeing My Circumstance in a Different Light
As I began to create in a way and ways that worked for me, the way in which I saw myself changed. In the process, I began to see my circumstances and “walls” as a way to build me up. NOT, to keep me down.
What I discovered was and is that my circumstances teach me lessons, even disappointment and discouragement. Lessons that help me to make adjustments in my life and relationships.
Lessons that empower and give me experiences that prepare me for opportunities not yet revealed.
Note: In the event that you have circumstances in your life that you do not like, my encouragement to you would be to see them in a different light. In a light that they are meant to build you up, not keep you down.
Coloring and Creating Outside the Lines
When I stopped trying to fill a societal role through traditional employment, I was able to begin to experience myself.
Experience my life as an individual living with a brain injury and an invisible disability using a vibrant display of colours.
In the process I was able to begin to create outside the lines of societies expectations, labels and stereotypes.
Coloring Outside the Lines of my Brain Injury and Invisible Disability
To began to see my process and journey as beautiful and in living and vibrant colors. In the process, I am able to express myself and be available for those individuals who have “eyes” to see and “ears” to hear.
Note: Be encouraged my friend and don’t give up on your dreams of coloring outside the lines of your brain injury and invisible disability. More will be revealed with time.