Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 7 for context. Thank you. Through a series of events I reached an emotional bottom. My emotional bottom alerted me to a reality. What I had been doing to maintain my relationships was no longer working for me. My emotional bottom subsequently motivated me to examine why I was in so much pain and why I had such a … [Read more...]
Archives for August 2009
Learning to Trust Part 5
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 , Part 6, Part 7 for context. Thank you. Such covert and overt conditioning brought about a fear of abandonment in me. Consequently, I found myself -- unconsciously -- being driven to strive all the more in an attempt to keep people from leaving and abandoning me. What's more is that I found that whenever I did not measure up to … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 4
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 5, Part 6 , Part 7 and Part 8 for context. Thank you. As I looked closer into my issues with trust my awareness's grew. In my mind — as a human doing — I bought into the notion that I could not trust unless I first performed up to the expectations of individuals, groups, organizations and religious institutions. Consequently, I found … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 2
Please read Part 1, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 and Part 7 for context. Thank you. I discovered that I needed to examine and replace my mis-guided and distorted perceptions — which in practice alienated me from the God of my understanding. With my awareness, I discovered that I needed to identify what enhanced and hindered my ability to trust the God of my … [Read more...]