Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 , Part 6, Part 7 for context. Thank you. Such covert and overt conditioning brought about a fear of abandonment in me. Consequently, I found myself -- unconsciously -- being driven to strive all the more in an attempt to keep people from leaving and abandoning me. What's more is that I found that whenever I did not measure up to … [Read more...]