Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 , Part 7, Part 8, Part 9 for context. Thank you. Through completing my 4th Step inventory and then by meeting with my sponsor to do a 5th Step, "Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs" I had a series of spiritual awakenings. These spiritual awakenings forever changed … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 9
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 , Part 7, Part 8 for context. Thank you. By completing my 4th step inventory I was able to identify patterns and how those patterns impacted my relationships -- with God, myself and other people. I needed to examine the patterns of my resentments because my resentments were killing me -- drinking poison and hoping … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 7
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 for context. Thank you. With time, I realized that I needed to replace the demand of perfection with the pursuit of excellence. I realized that I needed to replace the messages of old that told me that "I did not measure up to expectations..." with the realization that my good was good enough. I needed to cease from my … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 6
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 7 for context. Thank you. Through a series of events I reached an emotional bottom. My emotional bottom alerted me to a reality. What I had been doing to maintain my relationships was no longer working for me. My emotional bottom subsequently motivated me to examine why I was in so much pain and why I had such a … [Read more...]