Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 , Part 7 for context. Thank you. Because I realized what I had been doing -- in and through my relationships -- was no longer working I became willing to do whatever was suggested to me. Consequently, I was encouraged to examine my relationships through taking a thorough and fearless moral inventory of myself. My … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 7
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 for context. Thank you. With time, I realized that I needed to replace the demand of perfection with the pursuit of excellence. I realized that I needed to replace the messages of old that told me that "I did not measure up to expectations..." with the realization that my good was good enough. I needed to cease from my … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 5
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 , Part 6, Part 7 for context. Thank you. Such covert and overt conditioning brought about a fear of abandonment in me. Consequently, I found myself -- unconsciously -- being driven to strive all the more in an attempt to keep people from leaving and abandoning me. What's more is that I found that whenever I did not measure up to … [Read more...]
Learning to Trust Part 4
Please read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 5, Part 6 , Part 7 and Part 8 for context. Thank you. As I looked closer into my issues with trust my awareness's grew. In my mind — as a human doing — I bought into the notion that I could not trust unless I first performed up to the expectations of individuals, groups, organizations and religious institutions. Consequently, I found … [Read more...]