Several days ago I began this series as an addendum or in follow up to an article that I wrote, Living with a Disability — Go and Make it a Good Day. I began this series because in my experience I found that I could not begin to Go and Make it a Good Day until I addressed what kept me from being able to Go and Make it a Good Day. Per your information, each part of the series builds upon the previous parts of the series and each part of the series is connected to the series as a whole.
That is why I suggest that each of the previous parts be read for context.
I hope you are benefiting from my experience, strength and hope. Please let me know if the content of the series is helping you. Thank you.
And now for Part 3.
Hello and welcome back to Second Chance to Live. I am happy to see that you decided to stop by to visit with me. You are always welcome around my table. Several articles ago I introduced a series,
Living with a Disability — Go and Make it a Good Day. As a traumatic brain injury survivor — through this series — I share with you some of the important spiritual awakenings that I have experienced during my recovery process. These spiritual awakenings or awarenesses have empowered me with the ability to choose to go and make it a good day.
In part 3, I will share with you what held me in bondage for many years.
In essence, I discovered that denial held me in bondage because I Did not Even kNow that I wAs Lying — to myself.
And now for Part 3.
Before I began my process of grieving, I saw denial as an ally. In my experience, emotional pain motivated me examine my denial. In the process, I began to see denial as an active adversary. As my eyes slowly opened, I saw that denial was seeking to keep me trapped in a system that would or could not allow me to realize or accept my reality. In collusion with my fear (s), denial shamed me for not being enough even though I sought to do my very best. Denial also sought to keep me distracted so that I could not see a way to my destiny. Denial led me to believe that I was my disability, deficits and limitations.
Denial minimized my passion and discounted my gifts, talents and abilities. Denial — in practice — sought to silence my voice. Denial kept me shrouded by a societal stigma that devalued my worth because of my traumatic brain injury. Denial kept me subservient to what other people thought of me. Denial undermined my self-worth and self-esteem. Denial kept me crouched in the shadows of isolation. Denial told me that what I thought and felt were of no accord. Denial sought to keep me distracted so that I could not see the truth. Denial sought to disparage my value and worth because I did not live up to denial’s expectations.
As my awareness grew and I saw how my denial was limiting my life. Consequently, I made the decision to confront my denial.
Please read Part 4 for context. Thank you.
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