Welcome back. I am glad you decided to stop by and rest. I am so happy that I no longer need to measure up to a standard of perfection. I can be satisfied with my best efforts. I may find myself not being able to do much of anything on some days. Sometimes my body tells me to slow down in no uncertain terms, like today. I woke up on Saturday morning with the hint of a sinus infection. As the weekend continued, the symptoms became more evident. Today is Monday and I am not feeling much better, so I set up an appointment to see a Dr. tomorrow afternoon and this too shall pass.
In my experience, I have found that when I am hungry, angry, lonely, tired, or sick I am more susceptible to reacting to my environment and participating in stinking thinking. If I find myself lapsing in to pessimism or negative thinking, I need to step back and ask myself, “Am I hungry, angry, lonely, tired, or starting to get sick?” After I figure what is creating my negative thinking, I need to ask myself, “What do I need to do to take care of myself?” Through practicing self care and being accountable for my feelings, needs, and wants, I can live life on life’s terms just for today.
Today is Enough
I had a day with no specific direction or motivation. I found myself experiencing some sadness and depression, because I forgot to remember that this is a normal part of life. The reality is that some days will not seem as significant as other days. This does not mean that one day is better than any other day. It is as it is, on those days. Nevertheless, I will choose to be satisfied and content with today. I will assign both meaning and purpose to this day.
The beauty of this awareness allows me to relax and enjoy where I am now. Although I may not feel productive or even capable of learning anything today, I will be encouraged. My experience reminds me of my humanity and thus keeps me humble. In that humility, I find empowerment, because I trust the God of my understanding to guide my steps. Like a master weaver, He uses my limitations and vulnerabilities to guide my life. Therefore, I can rest in ambiguity.
As I stay in today, I accept that my limitations are ambassadors, sent to direct my steps. Resilience then gives me the motivation to ask questions and look for solutions. Therefore, I am capable of using limitations to their potential. Through this tenacious pursuit, I find myself being empowered in ways that once seemed out of my grasp. Therefore, I will savor my moments, as I live in today.
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